Fashion Designer John Galliano Says He 'Didn't Mean' The Anti-Semitic Rant That Ruined His Career

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In his first interview since theoutburst in a Paris restaurant, he told Vanity Fair that he does not hate Jews and that the comments reflected his own self-hatred and addiction to drink and drunk.

"It's the worst thing I have said in my life, but I didn't mean it ... I have been trying to find out why that anger was directed at this race," he told the magazine. "I now realise I was so ------- angry and so discontented with myself that I just said the most spiteful thing I could."

He said that he was so drunk that he had no memory of the 2011 night that he was filmed telling a group of French and Italians who he thought were Jewish that he loved Adolf Hitler and that their forefathers would have been "gassed".

He said: "My assistant told me about the video. When I saw it, I threw up. The feeling was like I was about to take a step out onto the street and a bus or truck whooshed past me and the blood was drained from my legs. I was paralysed from the fear."